absinthe on-the-rocks please!

Benumb my senses and take me with you. Take me so far away I may never return.
Absorb in me in such a way to maim my tears. Release me from the incarcerating chains of redemption.

Drowned in the foolishness of my impertinence, you set me free when all my sublime feints failed.

I want to return home to the scent of your presence that kept fading away so placidly into the solitude of darkness.

Time my friend is wafting away.

Domiciled within your dream, once lay a dream far away from this parochial world. Absolved from my narcissist loathing, that dream alas slipped away.

Haughty aspirations still linger that, hitherto the roads that I walked will find me some how and bring me back to you some day.

Fleeting breeze of a winter morning

With the dulcet sound of the morning rain hitting on my window, I took one look at the last autumn leaf still clinging with prosaic tenacity to be impervious to the winds, only to find itself eventually displaying its docility to the works of the nature.

If I could lee that auburn leaf I would then blench off my reticent illusion of having calibrated efforts in impugning my destined path that diverged from you a long time ago.

Although, daubed appeared this love story, indubitably immaculate was the love.

Just like the leaf wafted with tribulation I fell into futile capitulation.

But now rejuvenation is inevitable for there will be that morning dew slipping away from the verdurous leaves bringing forth saccharine effervescence of the coquettish spring.

And I, tacitly await...

Night at Baniyas street...

His eyes met mine and my world came to a halt. He kept on going but I stood there still. He left me now with the rapturous memory of those few seconds that shall last a lifetime with me. No other eyes, no other face, no other smile, just that memory became a panacea for me.

I hope I find you some day, read my eyes will you that day? For words are too frail to portray the simplicity of my dismay. Until then, I'll keep on searching for such serendipitous possibilities for their mere pursuit defines the meaning of my life these days.

Clutching on to that euphoric memory, bare feet I walked on the shore, then like the sparkle in your eyes that night, you stood in front of me, with that same ineffable radiating smile, whereby my reality blurred into fantasy and I kept drowning into that sparkle.

Let me touch you just once before you escape into the abyss of my dreams again. Let me beseech you one last time to stay with me till the earth and heavens remain. Though I wonder sometimes somewhere between my dreams and reality, if on that glimmering night just like me, you stood there too?

Shadows of the Rainbow

Absorbed under the debris of my dream,
perfidious roads I had walked,
signs drew caught in a gleam,
Here, I know not what I thought:

Deception, an understatement
Violence, simply a prelude
Truth, facade of inveiglement
Probity, gone kaput.

Impudence, purchased for filial piety
Profligacy, new prototype of propriety
Gratitude, forfeited for avariciousness
Virtue, consummated from calumniousness.

Were these unequivocal imbroglios
ensconcing something ominous?
Or, may be just puerile blasphemies
emanating from an ignoramus.

~J~

An amorous confession

How does a person influence your life so much? How do two complete strangers suddenly become inseparable? Why does it matter so much when that special person says or does things that mean the world to you? Why without whose one look, does nothing else matter?
He calls me a hopeless romantic.
If being so, makes me feel alive, then so be it.
I once took a bucket full of stars and poured it all on his lap. He asked, "Where are the stars, darling?". I smiled, and said, "their in your eyes, honey!". He smiled and shook his head, he knew there was no cure to what I suffered, they called it love these days.
I stayed back when you left and called your name in hope you'd hear it some day. People said don't hold your breath, love like that only happens in the movies. I said "I wouldn't know, I am only a fool".
But then you came, and called my name, I laughed, rejoiced and told the world, "Ah! what I wouldn't do to be a fool once all over again."

Thought of You

Emanated warmth from a winter's chill
baffled
I searched
dawn came empty, bare silence of night still;
surrendering;
cautiously knowing,
fickle always,
imprudent disguise,
unavailing entice,
I shut my eyes
pretentiously amused
Its always you

**J**

Lost Cause

Set out tenaciously
to succeed
only to rendezvous
with defeat;
Oblige me not,
bereft of
love I remain;
Presumptuously you resided
my life
your domain;
Arrogant efforts
to be impervious,
languished soul
laughed at my foolishness.

~J~

Somwhere Else

Why have the lights gone out

Why have the rains stopped
I'm parched and withered
my heart aches
perennial damage that will not heal
Look at me again so I can shimmer
I'm captive in my own corpse
This is not where I belong
I thought I lived in a world of love
when did I go blind
While I was promised interminable harbor
you debarred me from the very sight of you
Come rescue me to show me the good
else tell me what does hell hold

~J~